10 days to go till my life takes a huge step forward. as i come to think of it, i have no clue whatsoever on what university entails for me. was it even the right choice to study law at nus or should i have stuck to what i have always wanted, business at smu. the more i think, the more it seems like there was no choice for me at all, my parents vehemently objected the idea of smu, but i'm sure i could have put my reasoning and persuasion power to good use and opted to be a smugger.
" if you don't let me go smu, then i won't even go to uni at all. i can just accept smu's offer and decline nus's. you can't do anything you dont have my application numbers nor my pin numbers. this is what i want why do i want to do law when che did it already. why do you want 2 lawyers in the family...."
i'm sure it would have been something like that or maybe even worse. all the additional shoutings, screamings, crying from me. haha. i also think, if nus rejected me, i would definitely have gone to smu biz&acct. so in a way, once i had nus's acceptance there was no other choice. well it's a little queer that i'm having all these thoughts only now when it's definitely too late already. so well, cheers to embarking on hell mission sem 1.
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my days have indeed been good, well my car came on july 18th. everyone hates the pony sitting on my dashboard. andrew took dumbo (the stuff toy elephant) next to the erp unit and threw it all the way to the back where my cutesie turtle monk tissue case was sitting. thanks steffi and andrew for the thoughtful present.
well i thought to myself since uni is going to start soon, i must really play the hell out of the remaining week. i meet the guys everyday, the girls every alternate day. nowadays i get to come back anytime i want. i really dont know what exactly i've been doing. just a lot of coffees, a lot of ciggs, a lot of bumming, a lot of laughing. but i like days like these. nothing to worrry about and you get to spend time with your friends. there isn't anything to get angry and emotional about because i don't expect anything anymore, so i've been all peaceful with myself. which is a good thing, definitely.
the only thing that happened was the day at jon's house when pearl came to talk to me when andrew left to buy food. i was hesitant initially but michh said that i should. well maybe i was a little too harsh with her, i mean if i put myself in her position she must have been feeling scared and bad at the same time. but the thing that got to me were the kind of screwed up responses she gave. especially the last part i guess i lost it. but i mean if you wanted to talk to me, shouldnt you think about what to say at least? well andrew said that she was never good with words and all but seriously, i would rather we have not had that conversation at all. i guess i didnt mean to be that harsh and all.. but really, think of what you want to say to me first since it was you who wanted to talk to me in the first place. makes sense?
okay i should go and bathe. it's already 530 pm and i'm still in pjs. l: